Going to the doctors is very hard for most people with an eating disorder. The NUMBER ONE reason I don't want to go is because I don't want to get on THE SCALE. It is like a giant scorecard to remind me to listen to all those stupid voices in my head telling me what... Continue Reading →
Peggy (mom): Due to some issues with leg swelling, etc., my doctor ordered a sleep study for me to check for sleep apnea among other things. At first, I was angry because several people assumed I had sleep apnea. Of course, the addict in me just knew it was because of my excess weight and... Continue Reading →
Peggy (Mom): I should be proud of "Q"....I've taught her since a young age to be an independent thinker and not to succumb to peer pressure. We've talked about addictive personalities and how I really felt that it was in her best interest not to even take that first drink since I am a food... Continue Reading →
INTRO: I tell myself it'll be okay but majority of the time I don't believe it. I'm afraid of what I am and of my own mind. Sometimes I fear that I'll never get better, that I'll just remain stuck, and never escape from my own mind. At times I feel like trying to just... Continue Reading →
Peggy (mom): When I called the rehab facility and they told me I was going to have to give up caffeine while I was there, I looked down at my TWO cups of coffee (I didn't want to have to walk back to the kitchen for a second cup) and thought this was NOT going... Continue Reading →
Q : You are not your depression, anxiety, scars, eating disorder, sexual orientation, gender, religion, past relationships, bad decisions
Peggy (mom): It happened so often, I just thought it was normal.....or maybe I thought it was so abnormal I didn't want to share it with anyone....the voices. Yes, THOSE voices...the ones that were constantly in my head. Some people may call it "self-speak" or "self-talk"....whatever their names were...I hate them. Funny though...as much as... Continue Reading →
Hi! This is Peggy and Q….we started this blog to share our journey with depression and anxiety. So many things have happened to our family in the last several years that caused us extreme emotional pain and turmoil. We wanted to share our experiences with other women going through similar situations. We’ve gone through middle school/high school stress, new job stress, losing a loved one, battling cancer, sexual orientation, gender identity issues, new young relationships, cutting, etc. What we realized from talking about these issues with each other and other sufferers is that we are not alone and we are no different than MANY others out there.